I miss you until you re there because you hate me It s easier for you to despise rather than cry and miss me I cant blame you, sorry that I was so mean Pushed and shoved you from my life Ill never know if I was right I m not happier without you Just confused and bored and angry I need to scream But there is no one to scream back now The love is not enough I know that you needed me I hope you know that I did too The love is not enough I know that you needed me But I don t anymore No one holds a torch for me Just a knife behind the back Waiting for me to relax T o viscously attack I never meant to hurt anyone but I did Without selfish motive When I see you You look beautiful and sad Like a bullet to the chest It hurts so bad And I choke back The tears And I m suffocated by sad All these words and melodies Cannot relieve The pain that eating me Memories I can t escape even in dreams Make me sick Of being sick of all this thinking About every second I lived wrong